Gone, Gone, Gone

I didn't update this the day it happened, but in case anyone actually happenes to care, my grandfather died I think last week, if you want to know more about it, read the previous post.
HaineSolo( I decided to sign the bottom of this post for no particualr reason)

OH MEIN GOTT!

sorry, random German sentence in the title
anyways, it's almost the end of the school year, I'll finally be in high school (yay! I'm super special!)
even though there's only two weeks left we have so much work to do right now. I think I have about 5 essays i need to do, plus presentations for all of them, and I have to write a scary story because I was supposed to have turned iut in almost a month ago, but I was being lazy and didn't have the energy to finish my already 10 pg long story, which is not short, and my teacher will not be pleased that she has to read it, caue i still haven't finished it and it's gonna be almost 30 pages long after i'm done with it!
AND! i drew an absolutley ah-mah-zeeng! picture of Bill Kaulitz this weekend at my dad's house(which I will post l8r, as soon as I figure out how to get my scanner working again) cause I was bored cause i brilliantly 4got to bring books w/ me. I'm not allowed to be in my mom's town(which is where all my friends live) when I'm my dad's house because my dad hates the place and my mom(he thinks she's is completely insane, which I don't blame him, because i kind of do too) and my dad's weird like that. Plus I have no friends in down town SD, so instead i got to demolite a wall in my dad's shop( me + hammer = bad things, but my dad is weird and let me maniacally tear down the wall with this huge sledgehammer thing, then I had to clean up the mess). oh! And guess what?! yesterday was ALSo absolutely amazing for me(at least until the end of the day) I was in a really good mood at school because, well i 4got why. i seem to be having problems w/ that lately, like sometimes I can't seem to remember what I was doing earlier in the day, which is strange, because i normally remember everything, so I keep freaking myself out when I can';t remember what i was doing five minuytes earlier. But anyways, back to why my day was good. I was happy because i had been anticipating Monday begining because the Tokio Hotel homepage would be back up, and i really wanted to see the page, and it was even better because my egg baby for family education in school survived through the weekend and i felt super special, mainly because the oother three eggs I had fell, got sat on, or cracked it's head open on another egg (yes, I know, I am a terrible mother). So it was all good, at least until about 8 pm when we had dinner and my parents said we were going to go say goodbye to my grandfather for what was probably going to be the last time. My mom said he probably wouldn't last it through this week, he can't even talk now. I didn't know him that well, but I do know my Aunt, and seeing her cry made me really sad. That ruined my entire week, no, I take it back, it's GOING to ruin the rest of my week (since I only found it out Monday evening, and it is now Tuesday). I already seem to be getting strangely cranky for no reason, I got one of my friends mad at me, but she doesn't know anything about my grandfather, and she doesn't need to, because it doesn't make that i upset her right. Another thing I've noticed, in this past school year, there seem to have been an extreme amount of deaths in my family. I count seven, if I include our dogs, Maggie, who died of a tumor, and Mutley who we put down becuase he was so old he couldn't even move because he was in so much pain. It's a little depressing. I seem to have made it through the year, without freaking out and breaking down, so I'm good (plus, I don't think they really bother all that much, but that's just the way I am, I'm not the kind of person who WILL break down crying, although I did one time... but that was because of something else, and I wasn't sobbing, I just had tears streaking down my face because I was angry). I think everyong would would be a little weirded out if I suddenly broke down, because I never show anyone, or tell anyone, about the anything that upsets me, i just keep smiling, and no one SEEMS to notice. But, who knows, maybe someone will. Eventually.